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where do you feel ugliest?
Awakening Rants, Life on Earth, Oneness,

Where Does the Ugly in You Come Out? Go There More Often.

As you awaken, you raise your awareness of your own behavior.  Hopefully, you’ll recognize when you’ve done something nice, and praise yourself for it.  And when you do things that aren’t so nice, you’ll recognize it and aim for better “next time.”

So when will there be a “next time”?  I suggest you actively plan for those times by putting yourself in the places where you’re challenged the most.

The places where you feel most vulnerable, most inadequate, most unnerved by the situation.  Where the people scare you, where your “comparison” muscle gets the most action. Go there.  Face it.

For me, it’s the gym.

I live in Hollywood, California, so I’m sure I don’t need to explain much about the scenery around here.  And going to the gym, which is regularly populated with 6′ freaks of nature disguised as models and actors, can send me into a negative vortex of inadequacy. These fairy-like people who bend themselves into knots in every yoga pose imaginable, and lift more weight than I do, and look good doing it.

The hardest part?

Most of them are NICE.

That’s the kicker, eh?  I’d love to hate them for their perfection, their contribution to the continuation of the unrealistic ideal standards by which our society measures beauty.  I’d love to sneer and scoff and compare.

But all of those negative feelings I experience: comparisons of worthiness and value in our jacked-up society, my personal insecurities, and sometimes just plain despair…are simply MY feelings, and they don’t represent the people I’m viewing at all.

Facing these feelings head on allows you to redesign your attitude about being around those who challenge you.  Hiding from them will magnify your insecurities later. So go there, and experience it head on.  Bring each insecurity to light, and ask yourself if it serves you, or if you can let that go.

And you might find out that those you were afraid of, comparing yourself to, and avoiding, are people with their own insecurities, who long to be loved and accepted just as much as you do.

Go do that shit!

 

Kimberly

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reading for those struggling with waiting
The Esoteric, Trigger Messages,

Insight: Rapid Manifestation

Are you struggling with the aspect of TIME?

You’re awakening, and you’re realizing that time isn’t constant like they told us it was.  And that can lead to some confusion while you’re waiting for things to happen.

I pulled these three cards today, and felt compelled to share.  If you are reading this, then it was meant for you.

 

reading for those struggling with waiting

 

The key (23 Trigonic Quartz) to rapid manifestation (36 Pink Granite) is maintaining your inner landscape.

Maintaining your inner landscape, represented by the Lavender Aragonite card (37), is a reminder to be aware of the thoughts running through your head as you consider something you’re waiting for.

Thoughts of lack, like these listed below, can knock you out of alignment with what you’re wanting:

  • What’s taking so long?
  • Why can’t I have this thing?
  • Why does SHE have it and I don’t?

Just like a well-kept lawn, the neater your landscape is, the easier it is to navigate around it.  Tripping over weeds and slogging through unkempt grass will impede your progress.

So if you do notice those resistant thoughts coming through, recognize them, thank them for their previous service to your growth, and go back to focusing on what you do want with the knowledge that you’re perfectly capable of creating it because you are a conscious creator.

Crystal Wisdom Healing Cards by Judy Hall.

 

Kimberly

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how to know that you're over your ex
Awakening Rants, Featured, Life on Earth,

How Awake People Know They’re Over an Ex

So you’re waking up, and you’ll see some relationships fall away. The inward journey then begins, where you might replay situations over in your head in an attempt to find out what went wrong.  Was it you?  Was it them? Will you ever get over it?

Simply being awake doesn’t necessarily mean that the end of relationships is any easier.  In fact, when you allow yourself to actually FEEL, you could experience pain that you would have previously pushed aside or stuffed down in order to move on with your life.

That’s great!  Feel it! It sucks, I know.  I’ve had my heart broken into minuscule pieces and stomped on, as I’m certain you’ve had too.

And I’m sure that you know by now that stuffing those feelings down, whether it be emotionally, physically or spiritually, doesn’t serve you.  Not only do you fail to glean the lesson from the relationship, you’ll also dredge up those unaddressed issues in future relationships unless you clear them out.

There are plenty of ways to do this, including counseling, crying uncontrollably on the floor for a while, or writing in a journal. Feel that stuff, and let it go.

So how do you know when you are fully over someone, and ready to move on to another relationship?

I made a handy chart for you.

how to know that you're over your ex

Note that at the beginning of a breakup, you may experience base feelings such as hate, anger, jealousy and other immediate reactions.  Such feelings are associated with the lower two chakras: the base chakra and the sacral chakra.  These are common initial responses to a breakup.

As you heal—and not generally in a linear fashion, as denoted by the jagged line—your focus will move upward to the higher chakras; feelings related to those energy centers will be more balanced, and head towards greater respect and compassion for your ex. These include acceptance (solar plexus), forgiveness (heart) and wishing your ex well on his or her journey (throat chakra).

Still further along in your healing, you’ll finally move to gratitude and thankfulness for their contribution to your lesson.

This shows that you’ve created a balance among the upper energy centers of the third eye (seeing the reason for the relationship) and the crown chakra (thanking your ex for his or her contribution to your growth.)

How long does this take?  Unfortunately, there is no set formula. Variables such as the length of your relationship, the magnitude of the soul lesson, and whether others (such as children) are affected, will all determine your particular healing path.

What’s important is your recognition of your progress!  Are you able to look back at the person you WERE, and compare it with the person you are NOW?  Such comparisons are the only ones worth making, so please recognize and honor yourself for your growth.

This will prepare you for the next relationship as a better, more loving partner.

Love to you!

 

Kimberly

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do you know what you really want?
Awakening Rants, Featured, Life on Earth,

Do You Give Yourself What You Want? Do You Even Know What You Want?

Awakening souls journey through the process of ridding ourselves of unwanted things.  People, jobs, non-serving habits, and a lot of stuff, all find their way out of our lives as we expand beyond the illusion in which we’ve been living.

This is great for reducing the clutter that monopolizes our mind processes, freeing up space in our lives for us to enjoy being, rather than protecting, insuring, coddling and storing things that no longer serve a purpose for us.

Following this process certainly lightens up the load, yet it may also dredge up an issue that might need addressing:

Do you really know what you want?

The other day, I saw a crocheted handbag that was really cool.  A basic design, neutral color, and the perfect size.  I loved it the minute I saw it.  The price was fair.  It would fill in a huge gap in my wardrobe. And I didn’t buy it.

Why? Well, I told myself at the time, “you have plenty of bags, you don’t need another one.” And yes, although I do have a few handbags left in my collection, I definitely didn’t have one that looked like this or would serve its particular purpose.

So I went away, and yet I couldn’t drop the idea of owning that bag, and how useful it would be. It kept popping up, despite my attempts to put it out of my mind.  And when that happens, that’s a sign that there is a lesson in the situation.

So I sat down, and I followed my feelings about the process of buying something I wanted.

I realized that I was unable to recognize the difference between my own desires, and those of the people that benefit from selling me things.

Our society bombards us with desires that really aren’t ours at all.  They are the desires of those who want you to buy their products, their services, or their opinion about something.  They stream emotional images, words and concepts to affect your most vulnerable parts.

“You’ll be more attractive if you buy this.”

“You’ll never be happy unless you have this.”

“If you want to be like us, then you must do this…”

 

It’s no wonder that awakening people are gun-shy about making decisions, for we question the integrity behind the motives of those offering things to us.  We increasingly recognize the shadiness behind many actions—the secrecy, the lies and the misinformation. And knowing these things can send us into a tizzy of inaction altogether.

So in the case of the bag, I was rendered unable to make a decision about whether or not I really needed the bag. I subconsciously worried if I weren’t going to revert to the shallow, materialistic consumer I had evolved from, who collected things for the sake of impressing others with the sheer volume of ownership.

Sitting a while longer brought options to light. For example, I could donate an older bag that I no longer found useful, in order to make room for this one that was.

Andby the time I went back for the bag, it was gone.

So next time you are faced with a decision about whether or not to add something to your collection, ask yourself to feel out three things:

Do you really want it?

Would you really use it?

Does it bring you joy?

If you can answer “yes” to these three simple questions, then you’ve got every right to have it.  Your soul knows the answer to these questions, even if your befuddled mind does not; and it sees beyond the illusion of advertising and skillful emotional manipulation.

You are a good person.  And you can have what you want, so make sure to define what that really is!

 

Kimberly

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nothing is too good to be true
Awakening Rants, Featured, Life on Earth,

Today’s Bullshit Belief: Some Things Are Too Good to Be True

Our 3D Earth is steeped in polarity. Good vs bad, Right vs Wrong, and Better vs Worse; all judgments we make based on a dualistic perspective of our world.

Your true, whole Self knows that polarity is merely a construct applied to the game we are all playing on Earth.  Although all of life is based on balance, your Human Self chose to forget that we can have that balance without the judgment…and without having to actually experience either extreme in our physical world.

So, for now, we’re living in a Dark vs Light world, slowly coming to the realization as a collective that we have the power to choose either side—or NO side—and honor the other side’s beliefs as just as valid as our own.

This means that we’re busting through some old programming that’s been passed down through the generations.

One coming up a lot for the collective now:

“That is too good to be true.”

This is bullshit.

So why would anyone tell you that some things are “too good to be true?”

Because our forefathers lived in perceived powerlessness.  Tossed about by forces they believed were out of their control, they were constant victims of “acts of nature,” of the government, of genetics, of bad luck.  This powerlessness fostered manifestation by default, and the physical world reflected the unconscious intentions of the humans creating it.  We’ve been living in very dark times.

“Too good to be true” implies that to have some things, you must give up other things.  That you can’t have your cake, and eat it too.  That there is nothing on Earth that is perfect.

We were taught to be fearful.  We were taught to believe that someone out there knew better than we did, so we had better listen.  Such beliefs were recounted by countless exhausted, overwhelmed parents to hopeful children, over centuries of darkness-instilled existence.  It was easier to set up a child for failure in advance, than to watch him experience a heartbreaking defeat later in life.

And I’m sure you understand that it’s not a stretch to think that someone would take advantage of the fear of others, and magnify it, and then utilize it for their own selfish purposes.  This is why such fear has perpetuated across eons of human existence, even when meeting basic survival needs is easier for us now than ever before.

So the words of past overwhelmed parents are now reinforced through social media, broadcast news, and reality TV.  And it keeps people fearful, and powerless to believe that they can have what they want.  Because if you have everything you want, then it is hard to control you.

You can have it all. Everything can be good.  You can have all the money you want.  You can have the love of your life.  All of these things can be yours.

Thankfully, your Higher Self has the schematic of the major goals your soul set out to achieve during this lifetime, and it will guide you to the things that serve you on the quest for your divine purpose. If you allow things to unfold with a recognition of your power as a creator (even if you can’t see the big picture right now), your Human Self will align with your Higher Self, providing you with a satisfying life of love and inner peace.  It’s your belief that you can have the things that you want, according to your divine purpose…that will bring those things to you.

You will be so enthralled with what you have—placed in exactly the right place in your life, at exactly the right time—that you will want to openly share it with others.  You won’t even pay attention to the extremes of polarity, because your emotional, spiritual, and physical needs are met.  And you spread that energy to all those that you encounter, and maybe they’ll start believing it too.  That’s how the world changes.

Today, I want you to feel what life would be like if you knew that things can be good.  That everything CAN go right.  That your desires WILL be fulfilled, simply because there is plenty for everybody.  These are remembrances, not lessons.  You already know this; you just forgot.

Aim for the feeling that things are going well for you.  It may be a feeling that brings up some guilt.  SCORE!  One more bullshit belief that, once cleared, releases the resistance for allowing in what you want.

You’ve got this.

 

Kimberly

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the spiral of life trigger message
Life on Earth, Trigger Messages, Videos,

Trigger Message: The Spiral of Life

If you are experiencing great darkness in your life at this time, then this message is for you.

Those of us with lives in upheaval often feel like there will be no end to the darkness.

The cycle of life is ongoing, and you are merely traveling along the torus of life.

Make sure to enable the sound on your device, as there are both visual and audio components to this message.

Don’t forget: always be you, all the time. Even if you feel like shit sometimes. You’re human, and we are here to experience all emotions.

when life comes at you fast
Awakening Rants, Life on Earth,

Challenges Coming At You At Breakneck Speed

Life is funny in that it presents you things quietly, subtly, at first.

It hopes that you recognize the message, and take action on it. That action could be addressing a fear, paying a bill, or learning to trust.

If you don’t get the first message, it will send you a stronger one. And if you don’t get that one? More will come in succession, in larger and larger proportions, until the shit hits you in the face and you have no other option than to deal with it.

The act of meditation provides an option to listen to the subtle messages, but in our world rife with diversions, many claim that they don’t have time to meditate. Similar results can be obtained with other practices, such as physical exercise, creating art, cleaning or cooking, to name a few. It’s when the mind is at rest that we are most receptive to these gentle messages. But sometimes people don’t have time for any of it…and those are the people who are presented with DRAMA, because that’s what it takes to get them to pay attention.

Do you like drama? Great! Then expect that your problems, and their solutions, will necessarily be bigger than life, because that’s what you’ve asked for.  There’s no judgment in that statement; it may just be that you love action and movement and wild, extreme emotions.

In my experience, the youthful years are full of drama, until we gain the wisdom to remember that it can wear us out quickly.  Then, as we experience more in our bodies on Earth, we choose simpler, calmer options for learning.

So if you are encountering a number of hits to your sanity, look at where you may be diverting your attention.  Recognize any patterns from the past that were repeated indicators that your soul is trying to get your attention.

When you find it, address it head on with whatever method feels right to you. Drama or simplicity, your choice.

 

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awake people have bad days too
Awakening Rants, Life on Earth, Videos,

VIDEO: Awake People Have Crappy Days Too

Society’s way of keeping you in check is telling you that crying is a sign of weakness. No doubt you’ve been told that big boys don’t cry, or to stop crying before you’re given something to really cry about…

All of this programming is running the human show, until you realize that crying is a release of resistance, and is a necessary process while you’re expanding your consciousness.

Today, Kimberly made a video while crying, so you can see that no matter where anyone is on their spiritual path, it’s ok to be sad, disappointed, feel unloved, or be overwhelmed. Crying is a perfectly acceptable release for that negative energy. It’s when those feelings are denied that they develop into deeper issues.

So cry if you need to. It’s the greatest show of strength you could demonstrate, that you don’t want to keep that negative energy inside.

And don’t forget: always be you, all the time. Love!

Healer soul representation
Awakening Rants, Featured, The Esoteric,

Soul Development, Simplified

Souls travel a path from new, to young, to old.  With each incarnation, or rotation, the soul gathers more information—also called light—as it comprehensively “ages.”

I am presenting here a very simplified explanation of the path that souls take along their journey of self-discovery.  This is not meant to serve as an all-encompassing explanation of life; rather, use it as a guideline to feel your way along your own growth path, and be excited for the expansion that you’ll experience with each lifetime.

 

First, there is All That Is.  In order to observe its magnificence, it creates individuations of itself, endowed with all of its powers, and adds the element of forgetfulness about its divinity.

A new individuation looks something like the image below. This young soul’s signature has none to few incarnations.  You can see that the light particles are large, clunky, and disoriented.

representation of a new soul

 

This young soul below is gaining light (information) with each incarnation.  You can see that the particles are becoming more uniform, more ordered, brighter, and there is evidence of advancement to the next stage by the introduction of yellow.

a soul as it starts evolution

 

 

As the soul progresses, the light particles will reduce in size, but increase in density (which means that they are more concentrated, or brighter, than before.)  With each subsequent life rotation, the soul gains experience and wisdom, and becomes more ordered in its applications of that wisdom during each incarnation.  This is reflected in its signature.

soul development, yellow

 

 

This soul below has quite a few lives under its belt, as we might say.  It’s recognizing its power as a creator, and is making guided efforts to refine itself in an orderly manner.  This further refines its density, making each particle brighter and more impactful with the increased light (information).  The introduction of blue indicates that conscious creation is occurring while incarnated.  Awakening and Evolving Lightworkers on Earth might be in this category.

an advancing soul

 

This soul has had quite a bit of growth, is actively creating (if it decides to incarnate) and often chooses to be a guide for younger souls.  Guidance can be from either an incarnate or discarnate state. The particles are more uniform in size, are brighter, and are even more concentrated.  This is a high density, “old” soul. Fully awakened Lightworkers currently incarnated on Earth might fit into this category, as well as those we connect with as guides.

blue soul, advanced

 

 

 

When souls show a propensity for a certain ability, they may choose to focus on enhancing that ability through successive lives.  Artists, teachers, craftsmen, and leaders are examples of this. That emphasis on a particular subject will add further dimension and depth to the soul’s signature. Lightworkers are a good example of this; those who are part of the Family of Light will have their own mark denoting their experience in that area. It’s like a badge in Cub Scouts.

The green-tinted soul shown below could represent a healer.  Those that love to work with children (add pinkish rose to the mix) is another example.

 

healer soul representation

 

 

As the soul lovingly serves others in a guidance or support capacity, the particles become so small as to not be individually recognizable.  Rather, this soul would appear as an intense, indigo presence to the astral “you” viewing it.  This would be the level of Master Guide, who might be a “guide for guides” as they evolve on their own journeys. Incarnation is no longer necessary for this soul to evolve, as it is now fully self-aware of its powers as creator.  If it did choose to incarnate, we would feel this presence as a great loving leader, like so many noted in our past.

indigo soul

 

 

The fully advanced soul will be represented something like the image below.  The light particles are so intense, yet refined as to appear nearly solid.  Its reach will far exceed that of less-developed souls, as the embodied love and deliverance of Intelligent Creation is fully expressed. This soul is accessing the Collective at all times, fully allowing itself as a vessel for propagation of Intelligent Creation.  These are what you might call our Archangels, who, because of their all-encompassing reach, can assist multitudes of people simultaneously.

fully advanced soul

 

I hope that this simplified version of soul energy is helpful to you.

Something to note:

The above representations are of soul signatures, and your human eyes may or may not see these energies represented on the Earthly plane.  If you often see a particular Archangel in your meditations, that does not mean that they all must be represented by the Violet color.  Since we as humans thrive on metaphor and archetype, that soul may choose to present itself in a shape, color or image that provides you with the comfort and support you need at that time.

Please continue to visualize your guides as whichever image suits you and gives you the most comfort.  They are there for the asking, no matter what name, color or likeness you associate with them.

 

Although this material was channeled to me years ago, I claim no information to really be my own.  All of us have access to universal wisdom.  This is my interpretation of that wisdom, and there are others who have accessed this knowledge and have presented it in a different manner.

If you would like to delve more into this, I recommend Journey of Souls by Michael Newton.  His hypnosis work shows similar results to the information above.  I’m sure that there are other great resources beyond these as well.

 

Love to you!

 

 

 

Kimberly

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when you say something nasty to someone
Awakening Rants, Daily Energy Report, Featured, Life on Earth,

Repercussions From Your Ugly Actions

So you just delivered a snarky comment to someone. And you realized–just as the words left your mouth—that it was a harsh thing to say. But out it went, along with the dark energy attached to it.  And you know, dammit, that the Law of Attraction is going to start doing its thing: that snarkiness is coming right back to you.

 

The Law of Attraction doesn’t care what the intent is, whether it be positive or negative.  It’s going to return to you what you send out.

 

You send out love, then love comes back to you.

You send out a smile, then smiles will be returned to you.

You send out kindness, then kindness is presented to you.

And guess what?
You send out snarkiness, back it comes.

So what do you do when you realize that just a little bit too late?

 

Interactions with others are simply mirrors of ourselves.  Any action you perform, whether it be word, deed or intent, is coming back to you with similar energy.

We’re taught that the bad guy always gets caught in the end, and that he rightfully suffers for his actions.  He may get shot in the name of justice, or he may get unmasked, like in Scooby-Doo, but he always “gets what’s coming to him.”

Even Hollywood gently nudges us to fortify remembrance of this basic law.

But you don’t need to be shot for your negative comment. Although, similar energy will be returning to you according to the Law of Cause and Effect (karma), your recognition of your action is a huge step forward in getting yourself back into balance.

Your expectations about what those repercussions will look like are up to you.  Do you think you need to be shot for your nasty comment?  Maybe you’ve got some self-worth issues to review.  Expecting the worst of “what’s coming to you” is setting yourself up for a potent retaliation that probably doesn’t justify the crime.

 

Consider another approach when contemplating the backlash from a negative action:

  • Recognize that your actions or words were not in true alignment with the Best You.
  • Remember that you are human, and that these experiences occur for growth purposes.
  • Apologize not only to the recipient of your ugliness if possible, but also to yourself for any excessive self-flagellation about the incident.
  • Get yourself laughing as quickly as possible in order to increase your frequency.

We came to Earth to grow, and being awake does not mean that the growth experiences will end.

Yet your awareness of any non-loving actions, as well as the knowledge of karma, allows you to minimize the backlash, and sets the foundation for a better You, next time.

 

Earth Energy

Colors:

Dark Green

Black

 

Numbers:

228 (Door closing, another one opens)

1111 (Snapshot of your thoughts – make them good)

 

 

Kimberly

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