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Why Crappy Sex Won’t Help You Awaken

The crowning power of humanity lies in the power of sex.

Sexual expression allows for exploration into both the physical reality, and the spiritual one.  Its expressions are as varied as humans themselves, since each individual views sex through a different set of beliefs.

Sex, as it was designed, is a powerful process in which your energy, on multiple levels, merges with the energy of another, on multiple levels.  So beyond grinding and moaning, you are merging with your partner on the non-physical levels too; energetically “hooking” in a cosmic dance that you may or may not know is happening.

And what you believe about sex, whether you support putting Scarlet Letters on the Jezebels, or you fantasize about being suspended by leather straps–it will affect your awakening path like nearly no other theme in human existence.

After you’re finished rolling around in the sheets? You’re still connected.  Even if you never see that partner again, you still carry their hooks. So how do couples “hook” up, energetically speaking?

People choose sex partners for multiple reasons.

All of us want love; it’s the reason we’re here. Yet most aren’t adept at expressing it at this time.  Some want sex for release, some for reassurance, others for ego. And still fewer use sex to strengthen a loving, bonded relationship.

When you have sexual relations with a person, the energy generated between you raises the kundalini–or life force– from the Earth, through the base chakra, and to the sacral chakra.  The sacral chakra, located just below your navel, embodies the portion of your energetic signature related to sexual endeavors, lovability, and power within relationships.

Yet the kundalini energy need not stop at the sacral chakra.  You can bring it up higher, and higher, with you and your partner’s intent to do so.  Now many couples, especially new ones, can easily bring that energy up at least to the heart chakra, for they are in love! We all know how excitement reigns when we meet a similar energy field to our own; the relationship seems effortless. You can barely keep your hands off of each other.

But with crappy, lazy or meaningless sex, as well as any type of exploitative sex, the energy stops there.  Those that view others as a means to an end in the bedroom, will engender beliefs that cease the energy flow any higher than the sacral chakra.  There is a reason!  Until any beliefs centered around the imbalance of power have been reviewed and updated, this pattern will continue and more low-frequency relationships such as this will occur.

But what if you were really looking for that rare, loving and bonded relationship? And you just needed a little release while on your journey?

Ask yourself why you are choosing partners who do not appear to offer what you’re looking for, and why you slept with them anyway.

Starting with that question could open up a coal mine of blocked energy for you to release. Your kundalini level will remain at the sacral chakra until you do.

Want to be on the fast track for healing that stuff?

 

You can bring up the kundalini on your own. You don’t need a partner.

OK, now that your mind has flashed past a bed strewn with vibrators and chrome bullets, let’s talk about other ways besides that one.  (And even that one has a catch.)

Consider dormancy, which is the conscious choice to abstain from sex with any partner that doesn’t match your desired partner’s frequency.  Meaning, you don’t have sex until you feel love.

During dormancy, you choose to take that sexual energy that arises normally for healthy humans, and channel it elsewhere.  The options for channeling this energy are as wide and varied as magic rabbits at Adam & Eve.

You could create art, music, or play a sport.  You could grow a garden.  Write poems.  Volunteer.  Feed someone.  Take horseback riding lessons. Learn to tone.

This sexual energy rumbling within you can be put to better use than a one night stand.  It’s the most powerful form of energy you have, which is why so many aim to profit from it. Applied elsewhere—outward into the world through non-sexual activities—you can enhance the lives of many people far outside the scope of your bedroom.

Dormancy doesn’t require you to take an eternal vow of celibacy.  In actuality it’s the opposite.  Consider it the most focused of training in order to raise your frequency to the point that you attract exactly the lover you desire.

You’ll be on a self-study course to raise your own kundalini without the help of a partner.  This was the original intention of celibacy in the first place, but as we can all see, it doesn’t fit into our modern society so well under the original terms of allowing no outlet whatsoever.

But dormancy, now that’s just a temporary hiatus from sexual relations. If someone came along that matched frequencies and got the heart racing, the engines–now finely tuned and more oiled than ever before–will fire right back up and….

…..until then, you practice recirculating that energy within you, and back out, to the world in your own special non-sexual way.

Here’s the catch! Curb the running to the bright pink rabbit every time you’re stressed out and you need a release. 

Each time you climax without the intent of sharing with a cherished other, you limit your kundalini to the first two chakras; plus, you have just sent more lower energy back out into the world.  The aim is to break that cycle, so intend to recycle the energy in an alternate manner.

As you practice recirculating the energy in other ways, your kundalini can continue its ascent.  To the solar plexus, and the heart, and the throat, the third eye, and up out of the crown.  You can raise it even higher, to the five additional chakras outside of the body; and as one raises the energy to those levels, even more experience will follow for you as these centers are activated, and communications are established with other realms you didn’t even know existed.

This increased frequency puts you in the realm of others of similar vibration.

People looking for the same thing you are; but this time, it includes trust, and love and respect. You will no longer want someone who would settle for crappy sex. You will have been brought together for the right energetic reasons, and now your relationship has a chance.

This attraction will be the culmination of all the work you did during your dormant period, when you were leveling yourself out and generating self love. Work that is much easier done without a partner to divert your attention from self-improvement.  As you repurpose your sexual energy, you will naturally heal any imbalances you had about personal power within relationships, and your feelings about love for yourself, and ultimately others.

Imagine what sex would be like with someone who’s also spent the time and self-love to review their beliefs about intimacy, and having come to healthy terms with these beliefs, has consciously raised their kundalini up and outside to other realms.  Someone who experienced their own state of dormancy, out of respect for themselves; in order to master the most powerful energy available to humanity. Imagine the release that occurs when two people merge at their highest levels, open to explore the realms that are hidden from most.

I don’t know about you, but to me it seems worth the wait.

 

Love to you, in whatever form you choose.

 

Kimberly

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gray hair and karma
Awakening Rants, Featured, Life on Earth,

When the Universe Gives You Gray Hair

Do you have gray hair you’ve been fighting to hide for years?  If so, then you could feel trapped by belief systems about aging, self-worth and

One of the greatest journeys a human takes is deciding when to stop coloring his or her hair. It’s a societal norm to cover those grays for as long as possible, since our culture lauds youth as an accomplishment.

Kimberly, who went gray in her 20’s, shares the humorous journey as she allowed her hair to grow out in its natural gray pattern for years, only to cave in to Western culture’s pressures and color her hair all over again.

With resolve this time, Kimberly is rebooting her journey, which takes years, in hopes that documenting it will assist others to make the right choice about presenting their authentic selves to the world.

As always, it starts from the inside!

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Believing the Impossible: You CAN Be The First

Once we solidify the understanding that we are creating our reality, we start contemplating the viability of things—wild things—generally thought impossible.

“You can’t do that,” that old grumpy ego self tells you.  “No one has ever done that.”

And the new you?  Soon enough, if not already, you’ll answer with “Watch me.”

We’ve been living under a veil of limitations that is now lifted, and should you choose to embrace that, the sky is the limit.  And simply because no human has seemingly done something you would like to do, is not indication that it’s impossible.  It merely hasn’t been done yet, to your knowledge.

Think of some occurrences that we would never have thought possible, until someone tried them:

  • Someone believed that willow bark can heal any number of ailments, including staving off heart attacks. Now it’s called aspirin.
  • Someone believed that a mile could be run in 4 minutes, despite being told it was physically impossible.  Roger Bannister believed it, and since that day in 1954, over 1400 athletes have followed suit (some shaving another 15 seconds off of Roger’s time.)
  • It was widely believed in the late 1800s that the maximum possible speed any human could ever travel without suffocating was around 30mph. No reference needed here if you have ever driven on a California highway.
  • Someone said “It’s quite possible that within the next 100 years there will be a telephone in every town.” He was laughed at, apparently. That was Alexander Graham Bell.  He didn’t think big enough, in my opinion.

My point:

There is always a first.  If you desire to do something seemingly impossible in today’s world, yet can’t let go of the doubts, then check your beliefs about self-worth.

You no longer need to live within the status quo.  It was always a choice, by the way, but you forgot.  Now that you remember, you can choose otherwise.

 

Why self worth?

Let’s look at some common illusory statements that have been stuffed down your throat since you were born (that includes other Earth lives as well, to be sure):

  • You’re not smart enough to do that.
  • You don’t have the education to do that.
  • No one has ever done that.
  • It takes years of practice to be that good at that.
  • You’re too old to try that.  Maybe when you were younger.

BULLSHIT!

That is all bullshit, my friends. You’ve merely been exposed to fear-based programming that kept you controllable.  And you can de-program yourself by changing what you believe.

Anything that you can think of, you can experience.  Period.

It’s all in your beliefs that you can, or can’t, that make the difference between you doing something, and you shutting yourself off to the possibility.

 

If you think you can, or you think you can’t…either way, you’re right.

~Henry Ford

 

So if you have the desire to try something “impossible” that would make you go “SQUEEEEEEE,” then ride that wave.  Stay in the vibration of it for as long as possible, and ask your Higher Self for assistance from the non-physical side of you.  Those etheric tools are just waiting for your invitation to be put to use.

Remember that any pits in your stomach that arise, are doubts based on someone else’s opinion of what is, and is not, possible; and you simply believed them long ago.  You can un-believe them just as easily, now that you are sharpening your own previously-rusty, creative tools for use in the 3D physical world.

Now many others around you have not done the inner work that you are doing, and because of this, they may discount your wild statements as fantasy, craziness or wishful thinking.  I don’t suggest sharing your adventurous plans with those who will not support you.  It’s not that they are bad friends, but rather that they may still be too ingrained in the illusion to be a willing cheerleader on the sidelines for something they still consider impossible.

It’s time to pull out the toolbox and dust off those creative skills that have been trapped inside, waiting for you to wake up.  As you recall, things put away and ignored are merely stopped up energy.

You have a lot of power in that toolbox. Pop open the lid, and use your imagination.  It’s how the Universe expands.

 

Kimberly

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Kimberly Darwin video on banishing frumpiness
Awakening Rants, Life on Earth, Videos,

VIDEO: Banish Frumpiness! Simplify Your Wardrobe

Awakening redirects our focus inwards, and as Grandma said, a cluttered closet reflects a cluttered mind. Dammit, Grandma was right again.

This video was created for all of those who struggle with mass amounts of unused clothes and shoes in their closets. Not only do those clothes have energy of their own, but if you aren’t using them, they can drain your own energy just by your having them around.

This is a slightly satirical video, so if you are looking for profound wisdom about The Event, or when aliens are going to land on the White House Lawn, then keep searching 🙂

Kimberly does address some “past life” issues, such as poverty, abundance and external approval, that you may be facing if you have a closet full of clothes you just haven’t been able to purge. Remember, your past lives are occurring now, right alongside THIS one that you’re focusing on, so may as well clear out not only your closet, but your antiquated belief systems along the way.

Grandma will be proud when you finally rid yourself of the things that no longer serve you.

Blooper at end.

All photos of awesome lightworkers used with permission. Thanks Mia Donna, Evan and Deb.

woman with umbrella after breakup
Awakening Rants, Featured, Life on Earth,

When Your Love Is Not Accepted

You’ve heard that love is the key that opens all locks. So what happens when you encounter a door that won’t open, even if you’re turning the key with all the love you have?

There are times when we love someone so deeply, so completely, and yet they are unwilling—or unable—to reciprocate. So should we hang around and “hold the space” for them until they come to their senses and love us back? Or should we move on in hopes of finding someone else?

That depends on how you feel about yourself. Here’s why:

Every relationship is a reflection of you.  Every person that you are aware of, is giving you the chance to decide who you are in that set of circumstances. They come to you, and you to them, for the opportunity to co-create within this holographic game, via collaborative teamwork.

Not only are you choosing situations that mutually explore your personal themes, but you also get to paint on the Universal canvas, with any brush that you like, with others at your side.

So how you feel about yourself in terms of the relationship you’re experiencing, will determine what you will glean from your partnership.  If you’re awake, you’ll most likely deal with a situation like this in a very different manner than when you’re still asleep.

 

Let’s view an “unhappy” ending from two perspectives: Asleep, and Awake.

 

Karen loves Steve with all her heart.  She gives everything she has, and trusts that everything will work out, aiming for a loving, lifetime partnership.

But Steve isn’t all that into her. She’s good to have around, because she pays her bills, cooks for him, and does laundry every Saturday.  He dreams of greener pastures, with more freedom, where he doesn’t have to talk about his feelings all the time.

Eventually, Karen decides it’s time to move on; she’s exhausted from giving and giving, and receiving nothing in return. She’s heartbroken, worn out, and wildly distrustful of the Universe–with all its talk of “faith,” “belief” and “knowing.”

The time after the breakup is volatile for Karen, with feelings spouting like chronic volcanic eruptions, on both ends of the spectrum. As she heals, she goes within, maybe with a little help from red wine and long days parked in bed.  She processes her feelings, and, after awhile, she emerges back into society…single and opinionated.

 

If Karen is still asleep, she will probably re-enter society with a vengeance.

She’s sick of men and their animalistic behavior. She is worth more than that, and she’ll find someone who will appreciate her. She’ll be looking at the world through glasses tinted with bitterness (“that asshole doesn’t deserve me”), vindication (“He is HER problem now”) and cynicism (“Why bother? Things always end badly anyway”).

Blame will most likely be cast on her partner for his failure to return the love that she gave so freely.

 

If Karen is awake, she will re-enter society with humility.

Most likely, Awake Karen spent her breakup time largely focusing on themes centered around the relationship, rather than the shortcomings of her partner.

Areas of expansion may include self-worth (“why am I unlovable?”), trust (“why would the Universe do this to me?”), or independence (“why can’t I be alone?”).

Awake Karen would see the theme behind the co-creation, and recognize the growth she’ll experience from it.  She might suffer in the process or she might not, depending on how much accountability she bears for her performance in the show. Yet she knows that, ultimately, the relationship served everyone involved, and she appreciates the time they spent together.

So why enter into a relationship at all, if it can “fail” even though we gave it our all?

 

There are times when we, as humans, don’t see the whole picture just yet.

It’s hidden from us, BY us, in order to provide the unknowns necessary for choices to be made. It’s certainly so in the game of love, where expectations whirl like leaves in the autumn wind.

And people grow at different paces, determined by their level of focus, willingness to look within and stabilize themselves from earlier failures, traumas and disappointments.

Self-observation raises your frequency; and we attract those of similar vibration to our own.  If frequencies vary too greatly in a partnership, the relationship will end, to make room for a more-aligned one. It’s always a gift, even if it doesn’t feel like one just after the process.

So hold onto your key, and use it to unlock some doors in your own self.  The more doors you open from within, the more doors will be open out there, in your physical world.

That is true love.

 

Kimberly

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VIDEO: Blast Away Guilt with a Laser Gun

How many thoughts have you had today that were shot down with doubt and guilt? Here are a few to get you started:

“I don’t have time to do that.”
“I need money to have fun.”
“I should be working right now.”

Your Higher Self is waiting for you to screenshare! That’s when you hand over the mouse to the larger part of you, and you allow it to take control.

A No-Guilt Day allows you one day to give up control of your mouse, and see where it leads you….and when guilt comes up for your crazy thought, you’ll use a silly noisy toy to jolt you out of it and amplify your vibration back up into one of positive creation.

It’s a very basic version of neuro-linguistic programming that will also bring to your attention how many guilt-ridden thoughts cross your mind in a day. Probably more than you think!

Give yourself the chance to find out where your soul is headed with this simple exercise.

Pew gun used in Kimberly’s video can be found here:
Space Gun Led Keychain

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VIDEO: Losing Your Vocabulary? Me Too!

As Earth’s frequency rises, you may begin to forget words, even in the middle of a sentence!

You are not suffering from dementia, my friends. You are evolving into a telepathic SUPERSTAR that no longer needs to think, or speak, in a linear fashion.

Parables? Yup, you’ll hear yourself saying them, and wondering WTF happened to your thought patterns! Metaphors? They’ll become a primary way to describe things to others, as they cause imagery in the recipient’s mind that gets your point across way more efficiently than words.

Learn what your mind is doing differently in this video. Even I forget what the hell I’m saying, right in the middle of a sentence!

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Why we promote and deny aliens at the same time
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Why We Promote and Deny “Aliens” at the Same Time

Hollywood loves them. The government hates them.  Whichever side of the fence you’re on, “aliens” are part of our world in some way, shape or form. And they are not going away.

The motion picture industry is rife with awakened souls who consistently channel energies that exist outside the confines of our 3D physical environment. It is these pioneers who are the creators of fantastically imaginative works of art such as Star Trek, War of the Worlds, and Close Encounters of the Third Kind. (I still make that mountain with my mashed potatoes, every time they appear on a plate in front of me.)

Have you ever stopped to wonder where all that material came from?  Just some guy (or gal)’s imagination?  Yes. But there’s more to it than that.

These creators are channeling images, moods, tones and symbols from those who are watching this big Earth Experiment, awaiting the chance to contribute pieces of the lives that they live on other planets and in other dimensions.  I give my credence to these creators—some of whom don’t even know they’re channeling—still believing that their otherworldly inventions were the result of luck, or at best, being in the creative zone on a good day.

Most of Hollywood’s “aliens” (I use this word intentionally here, as it evokes a sense of fear and anxiety in the population) are malevolent.  They’re here to bleach us of resources, clear the planet of humanity as if we are locusts, or use us as slaves to do their bidding (that one’s not far from the truth right now.) It’s only pretty recently that producers are portraying softer interactions with extraterrestrials (see how this word could denote benevolence?). Movies like Contact, Arrival, and The Shape of Water are showing the more loving side of unified beings desiring to share their knowledge with us, even if they don’t share the human form.

Now most governments (we’ll exclude some such as Russia and most of South America) have been doing their best to cover up the relentless array of evidence that supports the existence of extraterrestrials visiting our planet. My own father, a pilot in the US Air Force, had exposure to them, but it was not to be spoken of at the dinner table. Everyone knew they existed, yet fear of retaliation from some omniscient Big Brother kept them from speaking up.

So why do we have this conflicting information about whether or not extraterrestrials exist?

It boils down to two reasons:

  1. Just as there are benevolent and malevolent humans, there exists the whole gamut of extraterrestrials with varying  intentions as well.  Have you ever gone to a school where every single student was good?  Or to a venue where every single person was bad?  No, there’s a mixture, based on life experiences and perception of the value of life of the participants in the scenario.  This condition extends to those living off-planet as well. Some value life, and others do not.
  2. Confusion. If humanity were completely convinced one way or the other, then those who “rule” us would lose their power over us. That uncertainty on the public’s part keeps it thirsty for any information coming from external sources.  This behavior precludes one thinking for oneself, and keeps the population in a state of fear.

Look at what happened in movies like Independence Day.

Humanity rallies, and fights back. This, of course, doesn’t fare well for the government, who loses its power over the people when they had to enlist civilian assistance to whip the bad guys and send them back home.

The fear of a greater force that can obliterate humanity with one Directed Energy Weapon can create patriotism among previously-separated socio-economic strata.  The bums and the billionaires are leveled out when the bad guy has bigger weapons than Earth’s money can buy.

Hollywood plays its part, in suggesting that there is a way to unify the masses while fighting the bigger foe.

The government, on the other hand, would deny the existence of other-world entities, since these entities are covertly running the government itself.  If you wanted to stay on the DL, you would create lots of smoke and mirrors elsewhere, diverting attention so that the masses will forget about why they were asking, and leave you alone to rule them.

Do they exist?  No, says the government.  Yes, says Hollywood (and anyone else who has any sort of higher connection with Source.) Yes? No?  Yes? No.

This  unanswered question, and the consistent discord around it, creates confusion and maintains separation and disparity among humanity.  “Of course there are no aliens, you’re safe here. Now go back to work and don’t worry about a thing.”

Of course, I’m oversimplifying here.  I want you to think for yourself about how you feel about a ruling body that keeps things from you, or if you even care. Need it run your life, either way?

Can you live a life without worrying about a more powerful force descending upon you like a giant shoe squishing bugs beneath it?  Could you consider yourself as the creator of this giant scenario, all in the name of self-expression while learning about Who You Are?

When you take back your own power, you view your world from a state of peace and compassion for everyone’s unique role in this Earth experiment—and you envision life working out for everybody—then there is no force that can overpower you, whether that force appears in a human body, or in another form that looks “alien” to you.

 

 

Kimberly

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Trigger Message: Shapeshifting

How do you present yourself to the world? Is it the same every time you leave the house?

The octopus is the ultimate shapeshifter.

This trigger message is created for those who may feel weary about the Lightworker’s responsibility for healing and saving the world.

It’s time to let that old, suffering martyr go, and try some new looks on for size. Shapeshifting is about finding the real you, and it is OK to change your mind! You can look differently, talk differently or move differently from one day to another, while still maintaining the authentic you at your core.

Go have some fun!

(There’s a blooper at the end).

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Want to Really Help Someone? Use The Law of Deliberate Intent

Rarely does a day go by that we aren’t reminded that someone in our world is a victim; whether that be from a natural disaster, or a bad relationship, or physical illness. It could even be you.

The media is first to provide every juicy detail of victimhood in its daily news reports.  And if you look at your own life, chances are that you were labeled a victim for something you experienced in your past.

It’s an easy trap to fall into.  I’ve been there many times, from losing everything I owned in a hurricane, to losing a child, homelessness, and a painful divorce.  I’m not alone; I am sure you can add your own experiences to mine, and we can hang out with other victims and talk about it.  I was a great victim.

So easy to do.  We receive sympathy, validation and undivided attention while we’re relating our woes.  Victimhood keeps people in the spotlight; but that spotlight is never aimed at the solution.  That’s where the Law of Deliberate Intent comes in.

The Law of Deliberate Intent dictates that what you focus on, expands.

So if your focus is on the details of victimhood, then victimhood persists.

Be careful with ego-fueled responses now.  There is no doubt that people suffer, and it’s important that we ensure that all beings basic needs are met if they are in crisis.  With the Law of Deliberate Intent, we go further and send out the intent that these “victims” move on to live safe, secure, abundant lives.

In other words, we stop focusing on them as victims, and instead focus on their well being.  Recounting the horror over and over again just keeps us all in a low energetic cycle of darkness.

Here is the part that some people find hard to swallow.  Whether or not you want to hear it, I’m going to tell you anyway, because hiding your head in the sand will only get you deeper into it as the tide comes in.

Every victim, everywhere, at all times, has chosen that experience on some level.

Yes. Even in the most extreme case of horrific, unthinkably diabolical actions.  Every victim.  Always.

That’s the way life on Earth works.

 

We incarnate for the opportunity for growth from the interaction with others.  In order for there to be a wide array of opportunities for expansion, some people choose to play parts on the receiving end of negative actions.  The potential for growth is huge, when you add suffering into the mix.  This applies to both the victim himself, and to all of those who are aware of it.

That’s where you come in.

Instead of focusing on the “poor victim” situation, you can focus on those same people and send out the intent that they will fully recover and continue to live abundant, safe lives.

This way, you’re sending out Light instead of continually putting your attention on the Dark.

It’s not hard to do.  You already visualize how you want your own world to look.  You’re just doing it for others, by sending out positive thoughts, and the intent that the situation will be resolved to the Best and Highest Good for all involved.  They may or may not recognize the life lesson involved in their victimhood; that matters not.  That’s free will, and as you awaken, you’ll learn your power to send Light to others, whether they consciously accept it or not.  You’ve done your part by shattering that victim label that so many others will still use.

This is how one person changes the world.  Seems such a small gesture, eh?  But it spreads.  Your actions are noted on an energetic level by the collective, so why not make them focused on positive outcomes rather than dwelling on the occurrence that got that victim where he or she is?

Your focus on the positive outcome is a great use of the Law of Deliberate Intent: Focus on what you want, rather than what you don’t want.  Your contribution raises the energy of the entire collective, which then makes higher-vibration experiences available to everyone.  That’s how powerful you are!

This applies to every situation, everywhere, including your own!

 

Love to all!

 

Kimberly

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